I lost my place today. I was working on a project and was interrupted, and suddenly I forgot what I was supposed to be doing.
Then I realized there were 20 things I was supposed to be doing. And I wondered to myself, Why didn’t I just call in sick today?
On the bright side, I broke the cycle of procrastination. I worked on the project I had put aside. And in doing so I found that I accomplished more once I broke through this barrier than last week while procrastinating; it seems that I wasted a lot of energy procrastinating, which was then freed up once I let go of the ridiculous fear that held me back.
I observe people at work, and have a bit of dialogue with myself. I might think How on earth does he keep a job when so little work is produced? or I am impressed with her ability to handle a problem or Where did she get those cute shoes? Thinking about these things not only amuses me, it teaches me how to approach problems, and what kind of professional image I want to project. The negative observations are just as important; I compare myself to the observed behavior and wonder if I am doing the same types of things, so that I can stop doing them. I certainly do not always effectively apply these lessons, but I am trying. It is just far more interesting to continually learn than to merely show up.
I ended up finding my bookmark, clearing some emails, completing a project, answering 20 questions, and leaving well satisfied for a Monday.