There is something about being a True Neutral Elf/Druid Ranger which propels me toward balance.
Today I grieved with friends whose son was murdered last weekend. It was a random and unprovoked act and, for those whose lives are lived by rational rules, quite a difficult thing to comprehend. He was a 22-year-old college student.
During the Catholic service, the young priest – interestingly, visiting this suburban American church from his parish in India for two months through a Church sponsored cultural exchange program – offered the customary words of comfort. But he did more as well: he discussed how those of us left behind in this world often live superficially, constantly seeking immediate but transitory pleasures rather than embracing the gift of our existence as a soul-filled journey.
Perhaps I am influenced by a sadness that is raw, not yet refined by the passage of time. Could it be that this wish I hold in my heart to relieve the pain my friends are experiencing is leading me on the downward path to religion? No, it couldn’t be so because of my deep reticence to engage in anything remotely resembling mysticism. But the thought of living soulfully is very appealing all the same. It is indeed something that has been skulking around in my life, in my mind, for several months.
There are left-brained people, and there are right-brained people. Where is the whole? When we are whole, we are able to begin to realize our potential. And that potential is expressed in many ways. We are wise, we are noble, and we help ourselves. We are innovative, we are accomplished, and we are kind to other people. It means we are completely human, not just limited to a single set of character traits or strengths but a poet and a tech geek, a musician and an engineer, a painter and a chemist. It blurs the distinction between the halves of the brain; we are a synthesis of our creative and intelligent minds.
And so, as Joni Mitchell said, I am a woman of heart and mind. I am willing to take the risk and live a life that is a whole.